Wednesday, December 22, 2010

#Trancefamily

The tag turns 1 tomorrow. So many of you have tried to understand what it means to me and why...and I've always struggled to put it into words. This paragraph I wrote for our retrospective today is the closest I've ever gotten....

"I wrote a tweet earlier today telling Simon Patterson that I cannot imagine my 2010 without his track "Miss You". In much the same way, the last year for me has very little meaning without #Trancefamily. What started as a way for us to share our love for this beautiful art form has become something bigger than any of us could have ever imagined. I know I've found people in the past year who will be in my life forever...and I'm pretty sure every single person reading this has too. Together, we've created a community of people who never forget to dream, who open their hearts to the power of music and, most of all, look beyond borders and distance to form the most special of connections. We've travelled far and wide to meet each other at events, we've shared so many sleepless nights together we've practically invented a #Trancefamily time zone, we've laughed, cried, and found love in each other's words. #Trancefamily to me is a glimpse of what a world could be like if we stopped looking at our differences and instead realized that the things we love and hope for are the same. Thank you to each and every person who belongs to this beautiful family of ours - I might never meet or tweet all of you, but it's a powerful thing to know that we're all dancing to the same beat. We Are One..."

[See everyone else's here.]

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Confession

Being the self-assured, 21st century feminist that I am...I still can't help but get super-flattered when a handsome South African Trance DJ whose music has defined my 2010 flirts with me. For shame ;)

(not naming him, I really want a job in this industry you know :P)

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Self-Indulgence

It's not wrong to buy Christmas presents for oneself, is it? Well, if it is, I'm OK with being wrong this one time.

Merry Christmas to me! Good job killing that exam :)

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

To learn is to live

Last hours of studying before my final in my Future of War class. It's probably been my most challenging and favourite class of the semester. My professor is not only an eminent scholar in the field of Political Science, but has also served over 30 years in the US Armed Forces, been the top military advisor to President Bush (Sr) and therefore has, quite literally, seen all there is to see in the Politics of War (ha! see what I did there - Politics of Dance, Politics of War...get it? No? You guys really need to be listening to more EDM).

I come out of this class immensely challenged, politically and academically. It has taught me so much about the complexities of International Relations - it seems fairly daft to say this, but truly until I took this class, I never really grasped now non-absolutist (yes I made up that word) the geopolitical strategic world is. I have a newfound appreciation for the complexities that are involved in the work that world leaders and military strategists do on a daily basis.

It's often hard to understand why politicians make the decisions they do. During my time at Brown, I had taken a myriad of classes where the genocide in Rwanda had been discussed. It is almost universally voiced that that it was the failing of the west (the US in particular) to not have intervened during those 90 days (every time I imagine that over 1,000,000 people were killed in the space of a summer job...a part of me really feels hollow), It is hard not to feel a visceral hatred towards international diplomacy when you read the transcripts from the UN General Assembly and Security Council meetings from that period. The tip-toeing around the G word to avoid taking any responsibility, the obvious lack of knowledge of the region (some members of the GA referring to a war between the "Tutus and Hutsis?") and basically the running-around-like-headless-chickens nature of the UN entity in general.

Bill Clinton visited Rwanda in 1998 and said to the people of Rwanda, "I am sorry. I truly am". (of course not in his 'official', government-endorsed speech...don't get me started on that one) And he meant it, they all did - how can you not? I know they each go to sleep every night knowing that they had it in their combined power to do more to stop the horror.

But if you ever have the chance to, please watch a PBS documentary called "Ambush in Mogadishu". It is basically the factual version of "Black Hawk Down". Less than a year before Rwanda, 18 American soldiers are killed in an unknown city where they are technically not even involved in a war. How does a president who can barely get a coherent explanation from his top military officials for why this occurred explain it to his country, his people, his constituents. And then to make a similar move barely 1 year later? No, it's really not as easy as it sounds.

It's not an excuse for inaction. And I don't think Bill Clinton or his government will ever use it as such, especially in light of what transpired in Rwanda. But, it explains one element of the strategic decision-making. This is really just the tip of the iceberg in terms of the complexity that I have grappled with in this class (and I use it as an example just because I'm reviewing the case study right now lol).

You know something else? We call our leaders, diplomats, governments war mongers. This class shows me how that is, by and large, entirely false. It has shown me how easy it can be for countries to go to war with one another (Russia proved that against Georgia). It has given me fresh perspective on controversial wars like Iraq and Vietnam, it has shown me the complex web of international law, UN resolutions and historical precedence that goes into making and preventing wars. Our professor said that one of the goals of this class was to force us to put our political-party affiliations aside and to begin to understand that war & peace policymaking was as far from black & white as possible. I can safely say I've come to understand that.

Let this post not read like one that passively agrees with every decision authority takes or excuses the obvious mistakes it makes (ooh ooh rhyming couplet), I'm really just thinking aloud about how much I'm learning on a daily basis about the VAST grey area in international relations.

It might seem obvious to some of you realists and pragmatists out there - but, believe me, it has never been to me. I truly believe that morality should guide the decisions that we make - our responsibility to protect and prevent should guide our domestic and international policies. I have always been and hopefully will always be a person whose politics reflect my personal principles. But, putting myself in the shoes of some of the political players in the mind-numbingly difficult situations they have been put in since WW II makes me realise that I would have probably made similar decisions to theirs. As the old cliche goes, we are not all that different.

Should I be happy that I'm beginning to understand politics in a way that allows me to conceive of a future in it? Or should I be mortified that my unbridled activist spirit is slowly being numbed into the senile state of eternal compromise that global politicking requires? Like a good diplomat, I'm plum on the fence.

And now, back to it...Mass Terror as Warfare. Oh, joy.

P.S. - Wish me luck!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

There is no better feeling

...than that of falling in love, again.

Just sayin.

Friday, December 10, 2010

What gives my life meaning

Trance, my Trancefamily, the words that my heart wants to say but doesn't know how. The uplifting synths, the basslines, the whispers of the most deep and beautiful corners of our world. This, right here.

From 12AM - 7AM tonight, literally nothing in the world could stop me from flying. And believe me, life, you've tried and you will continue to try, but I mean it - nothing.


How about you? What makes you feel this way?

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

BLURG!

OK, so the lyrical quality of my previous post (*cough* if i may say so myself *cough*) was RUINED by those nerds taking down the video; all so that they can upload an HD version of it instead (I mean who understands the difference anyway!?). Which I might add they haven't managed to do in 6 hours. So, HERE is the song if anyone would like to hear it. Everything I said earlier still stands:



End rant.

This is love.

It is a dream of mine to some day meet Eric Prydz. There are few artists in the world I love and respect more than him. He has a unique understanding of the human spirit and truly understands the purpose of music. But enough of my babbling, let the soul-soothing decadence of the song speak for itself. Some things are so beautiful they hurt...

Monday, December 6, 2010

Guilty pleasure: part 1

Say what you will about international food & produce trade and the astronomic economic and ecological costs of importing non-seasonal fresh fruit...nothing beats a bowl of sweet mangoes in the middle of a -9 degree winter day in Boston.



Sorry Mother Earth (and Her hippie protectors), I'll make it up to you some how.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

:)

6PM on a Sunday: curled under my blanket with my cuddly hot water bottle, a big bowl of Lucky Charms, watching Harry Potter & The Order of the Phoenix. And all this, absolutely guilt-free.

This is what life is like when I stay in all weekend and power through my mountain of work for finals. I do believe this is what they call contentment...

P.S. - Just realized this would also be my 14 year old self's idea of contentment. Hi there, my name is Peter Pan - what's yours?

Edit: And now watching the Ashes. Could this night get any better?

Thursday, December 2, 2010

All right stop/collaborate and listen!

Thank god I'm not a boy, I'm pretty sure I would do exactly something like this.



Speaking of which, listening to some of my guy friends talk about their girlfriends last night makes me realise how hard women can be on them sometimes. Ladies, if you've been with your fella for a while and you like like-like him, cut him some slack - he deserves it. Having said that, if you're just starting out with him - it's probably best you be extra demanding and assertive, you're definitely worth the extra effort he puts in ;)

(I can hear my mum's voice in my head as I type this post, "How can someone who is so good at giving relationship advice be so terrible at following it?" It's like she hasn't even watched a single Katherine Heigl movie. *SMH*)

And yes, I am listening to Ice Ice Baby right now. Don't judge, I know you are too.